late reply.
Hello, it’s me. Today was Milly’s 6th birthday. Sadly she spent the day at school. Not the best way to spend your birthday but I think she had fun. We made cakes last night for her class, and one for each of her teachers AND the Headteacher and Deputy. Such a kiss arse! Like me…. hehe. We had a great holiday in our tent, we went to Devon for two weeks. It rained solidly, well, almost. This year we decided we would improve our holidays for next year by buying a campervan. A classic, VW, 1978. Year of our birth…………. we are very excited about that. Also, I had my degree classification; I was awarded a 2:1, which is pretty damn amazing for a mother of two. You can call me; Carly Sarah Woodall (Robertson) BA (hons) if you like? I’m proud of myself, I just can’t help it. I would have replied sooner but have been pondering over things you wrote in your last email. I cannot lie to you; your comment about my acted anniversary party photos made me sad. Of course they were acted! It was a party! Did you not like them? Were you not delighted to receive them? Do you not want my pictures? What do you want? I’m buggered if I know. I always tell myself that I’ll wait for you to seek me out ‘this time’. I never manage it do I? I wonder why that is? I wonder why I can’t let this go, you, go. I realise that this might be hard to read, indeed, it’s fucking tough to write. But, I’m at a funny place. I felt conflicted about telling you this because I didn’t want to hurt your feelings, then I realised that it’s not fair on me to be the only hurty one. Here I am, sharing my life with you, giving you my two best things; Milly and Sonny. Do you want us? or are we too much? Should I have not contacted you? Left well alone? I need to know, I’m sorry to be so brutal, but I don’t know what to do next. Love to you and the girls, Carly xxx
