March 2012
2 posts
Hello Anna :)
*waves
December 2010
1 post
“A thoroughly modern man matches his profession to his ethics, not his ethics to...”
– (via woodyben)
:)
October 2010
1 post
Waiting.
Always waiting.
September 2010
5 posts
more lengthy response, longer, lovelier. Sigh.....
Well Carly Am sad that I upset you , it certainly wasn’t my intention miss B.A. well done, i’m on the last three weeks of my coarse had 1 exam got a distinction 2 to go but i’m on top of it . When you said about your camper i nearly fell of my seat, this your never going to believe when i was around 4 years my dad had a volkswagen pick up he would then put the canvas hood on...
Short reply, not very sweet. Still waiting.......
Carly, baby I think that you are top banana it was supposed to be a light hearted comment am sorry it upset you so dinny feel sad babe cos am chuffed wit u and Ben you have managed to achieve what I failed in, any way ill b back later got to go to the dentist love yer dad
late reply.
Hello, it’s me. Today was Milly’s 6th birthday. Sadly she spent the day at school. Not the best way to spend your birthday but I think she had fun. We made cakes last night for her class, and one for each of her teachers AND the Headteacher and Deputy. Such a kiss arse! Like me…. hehe. We had a great holiday in our tent, we went to Devon for two weeks. It rained solidly,...
Milly is 6
Not been here in a while. Came back from holiday hoping for an email from Dad. Nothing. Two months. I know I said I was giving up, I might cave soon.
This was a Dad blog.
Now it’s a parent blog.
I know why you moved away Mum. And I understand it. I do.
This morning Milly came into our bedroom, she had a cuddle then took herself off to find her uniform, get herself dressed, brush...
July 2010
4 posts
That's enough.
I’ve decided. I know I have said it before. But I’m giving up trying.
Two weeks I waited for this. Two long weeks.
well here we are again, very nice photo’s a bit acted though but very nice all the same,so what was that all about? then. emmas not spoken to me for three week’s, but that’s not bad, helen has gone up her mamas for her birthday 81 to-day, anyway i’m in school but ive just finished a mock and i’m waiting for it to be marked, the real mc coy to-morrow.hows yer...
Today
I spent a sunny day in St Albans with my girl, my Nanna and her friend Wend. I wanted to document what Nanna and Wend mean to each other. They always call each other sis. Sometimes when Wend is telling Nanny off she calls her Sarah Jane. Sometimes my Nanna is quite dominant with Wend, like a big sister. They must’ve been friends for fifty years plus. They are quite literally like sisters....
So....: Doors →
Footfall on wet paving. Rapid, uncontrolled, caring not for their next impact. Breathing jagged, panting. Stacatto, exherted grunts, unthinking, unbidden.
A light, sapphire blue, pulsing, pulsing, pulsing. A skitter and skid, rubber sole straining to a halt, leaving just raw, shuddering breaths,…
Wow Rob.
June 2010
9 posts
reply reply reply!
Hello Dad, Sorry it’s taken a while. As ever it’s been busy here. Firstly, I’m delighted that you liked the Fathers Day card. When I sent it, I want you to understand, that my intention was not to make you feel guilty. To be honest, that’s the last thing I want. I don’t want you guilty and I don’t want to carry on with this contact if that’s how it...
:(
don’t relish the thought of him turning up on my doorstep either.
email
Well good morning to you ‘Carly Sarah’ and the Woodall cookie crew fank’s for the card which sparked the usual angst but had a very nice outcome Emma came in from work and asked ‘wot’s the matter dad’?I’m feeling guilty ‘well you shouldn’t you’ve been a good dad to me I’m sure you would have been as good to Carly &...
Email I've been waiting for arrived. Bad timing.
Crying crying crying. I don’t want him guilty. I should never have started this. Such a messy mess.
Well
Still not replied to that Godforsaken email. Have, however just posted a Fathers Day card.
Hhhmmm.
Rob's blog: Lamerwood →
So I run. And one of my runs from the village of Wheathampstead takes me through Lamerwood golf course. Lamerwood was an exclusive leisure facility set within beautiful Hertfordshire countryside, but recently things have changed. As a golf course Lamerwood has died, but in the process it has been…
eugh!
congratulations to you well done girl,really chuffed i would nt worry to much about the other cos if as i suspect,you have a wee bit of me that wont let you give in. so milly s got wobbly teeth i used to love wigling them with ma tongue noo ive very little left so you better watch out, and as for wee joe i was four when i had my tonsils out great loads of nurses & ice cream ,see i was a...
May 2010
6 posts
Well
I just wrote my fathers fathers day card.
:)
a very late reply..............
Ok, hello, here goes, this’ll be a longun and sorry for the delay. I didn’t get a place on the course, this is for the best. I’d waited a very long time for that interview, 6 years. Too long. I rushed into it because my degree was finishing and was frightened of not having my future mapped out in front of me. It would have meant very long days away from the children for...
“The metal slid home, fast and free. I took my last breath and let go, jumping...”
– Dowd.
“We sin more by omission than of commission.”
– Siobhan Dowd.
:)
Something we were withholding made us weak. Until we found it was ourselves.
reply
HI TO YOU ALL well missus you certainly lifted the dark cloud around my head no sooner had I read ur email an envelope popped through the letter box WOW a wee scary monster peeked out at me , Brill you certainly know how to make me happy its really quite unnerving how my child that only got to know me through her own endeavor ,i really am a rich man pity it wasn’t in cash but ill ...
April 2010
12 posts
hello Dad
Hello, so sorry for the delay. So sorry also to hear about the loss of your friends. All is well here. Ben and I have been at a child free wedding this weekend, we had the most wonderful time. Only slightly tainted by me getting too drunk and returning to the bar in my pyjamas, semi-humiliating us both, then running off to the the loo to puke. I made it to the loo. This makes the puking...
Childrens Literature
Has been the most fascinating journey. EVER.
“On a huge hill,
Cragged, and steep, Truth stands, and he that will
Reach her,...”
– John Donne
“A lie has seven twisting paths, the truth one straight road.”
– Beverly Naidoo.
“Anything’s possible if you’ve got enough nerve.”
– J.K. Rowling
I've been waiting ages.
I got this a couple of weeks back, five and a half to be precise, Helen is my Dad’s lady:
Hi Carly, its Helen ur dad asked me to email u, to say he is up in Scotland at the moment and he will be in touch when he gets back, hope u are all keeping well. X I replied like this:Thank you for letting me know Helen, I really appreciate it. How are you? Cxx And got this in...
March 2010
8 posts
not been here for a while
Just checked my email and there’s no news from Dad. Not really bothered. Feels fine. Saw Lucy and Lucas today. He’s five weeks now and has changed lots and is so amazingly gorgeous. Smells fantastic.
I think I need to build up my blogging confidence again. It’s had a few knocks lately which is such a shame because I really liked this little space.
My little sister Molly is...
Fuck it
*persistent.
Sometimes
I have this burning, persistant desire to bare all here. I really feel it today. Like there is so much more to tell and explain. Today is one of those days. I think I’m getting closer and this is the nearest I’ve ever been. Today has been poo thus far. I am miserable. I need to cheer the hell up.
February 2010
15 posts
All I really wanted to say was....
…. Look at Lucas! Look at your Grandson. Eugh. This is doing my head in today. I need to sleep. And I swear, if he spells Millys name wrong one more time I’m gonna tell him. I am.
